December 2010.

Another passing of December 19. Two years honoring the last day of my husband's life...

Two years since I heard his voice, telling me how much he loved me... Two years since we wrapped our arms around each other, holding on tight never wanting to let go... Two years since I layed beside him in our bed, feeling the strength of his faith... Two years since I held his hands and watched him leave...

It's been two years without my husband by my side, guiding my path... protecting me, encouraging me... Two years since I lived a life as two, being a wife with a husband who adored her...

Now I sit here at the ocean, watching and feeling the powerful waves... listening to the sounds of God... my heart is still broken...

I search for peace... the strength to find joy, to have dreams for the future...

I search to find meaning in my life... the strength to find my path.